PRELUDE

My mind has a mind of its own That loves to see my soul Quiver and shake, at the choices I've made All because I can't let go I try to relax, try to think back Happier times I will relapse Dreams of a child I used to have, inside me Mother told me growing up you worry all the time I learned I can't help it if it's part of my design I was never blessed with patience I always want to be the greatest Version of myself, for my health but I can't Cause I I Overthink a lot when I try Connecting all the dots in my life Always stressing over nothing Scared of repercussions Hard for me to function Like I'm dysfunctional, over emotional Melodramatic, I can't help it it's a habit Worried all the time, always in a panic I have a problem with overreacting Paranoid inside the matrix I can't escape it I'm so impatient Just avoid me I can't change it My heart is vacant Forever jaded Had to leave my hometown too many toxic people Bloodthirsty souls I can see it like they see through I'm only a teen when I feel like 26 My grandma preaching slow down you got so much left to live Hopes too high always thinking bout the future Twisted lies through the teeth of the abuser Sacrificed everything only to lose her Who am I thinking she could ever love me Head racing, I'm moving high speed Losing my sanity So caught up in my dreams Set me free Set me free