Barely Getting By

Okay let me tell you what's been going on Got no one to tell this to so I'll write it in a song Everyday feel like struggle to get by And sometimes I would rather say goodbye and die Everyone around me tells me that my limit is the sky So when I fail they say that I didn't even try Everyday I say I'm fine it's just another lie Staying low and getting high while I'm barely getting by Wonder if my friends been thinking of me while I'm on the road Know I'm busy but it's lonely when nobody calls your phone Haven't heard their voices in forever all I ever get is the dial tone I've been out of state for way too long On the interstate in an Escalade wishing I was back at home Living life like a rolling stone Haven't seen my brothers in a couple months, it got me feeling all alone Brayden always working, I ain't seen him in a minute Homegirl stay up in the quaker city maybe I should go and visit Losing all my friends and family I don't know how I'm supposed to fix it Suicide been on my mind Think that I should leave it all behind But every letter that I write is giving me another reason I should stay And every invitation to my funeral makes me not want my name engraved Every time I look for God I feel like I'm just getting pushed away Satan preying on me, I keep praying anyways In the hospital alone I don't know the time of day I wonder what my friends say Crying out for help, they tell me that I'm grown And push me to the side and leave me all alone So I turn on DND and put away my phone Text my brothers that I'm never coming home Okay let me tell you what's been going on Got no one to tell this to so I'll write it in a song Everyday feel like struggle to get by And sometimes I would rather say goodbye and die Everyone around me tells me that my limit is the sky So when I fail they say that I didn't even try Everyday I say I'm fine it's just another lie Staying low and getting high while I'm barely getting by