Bleed

Wish I could go back to being a kid again So I don't keep going through hell again and again And none of the thoughts are immense and nothing is at your expense If I was a kid again, all of my troubles would come to an end That ain't how it works Summer of 2020, I had to get surgery on half of my spine Stayed at the hospital just for a couple of weeks, all of the nurses thought I would be fine But when I came home, I had a reaction to all of the medicine Went crazy off all the drugs, swore that I'll never get high for a day in my life again Felt like a curse since the day of my birth Used to fight back when I would get kicked to the dirt Now I just bottle it up and act like I never got hurt Started in high school, I thought it could never get worse Make any song to express how I feel and everyone laughed at my work Lost and alone, so I'm not too sure of my worth Begging for help in my songs, but nobody ever paid any attention to me Cutting my arm by the hour, I like how I feel when I bleed Begging for help in my songs, but nobody ever paid any attention to me Dying inside, I'm crying for help, I'm watching my body bleed Feel like the world would be at its best if I wasn't there Writing these letters to people who don't even care Joined theater so I could be part of a group but they never wanted me there Put all of my trust into people who never cared Administration was corrupt, it's not like they were unaware And then I got chronically ill Skip ahead three years later, still not doing too well My life is a living hell Begging for help in my songs, but nobody ever paid any attention to me Cutting my arm by the hour, I like how I feel when I bleed Begging for help in my songs, but nobody ever paid any attention to me Dying inside, I'm crying for help, I'm watching my body bleed