I Hate Me

I tell myself I hate me all the time That's the reason I just stay inside Overthinking going through my mind I'm afraid that I'm not perfect in your eyes I tell myself I hate me all the time That's the reason I just stay inside Overthinking going through my mind I'm afraid that I'm not perfect in Your eyes Aye I'm sick of the time I wasted I live in the past I hate it Reminisce on conversations Wondering if I should say this I don't know I don't know I just wanna live in freedom I don't wanna be controlled By regret Or resentment I been tryna find contentment But it's hard for me to catch it When they showing their successes Independent but I'm jealous More attention wish I had it Got me thinking in my head if It were different I'd be happy but no no Yeah Jesus come clean up my soul yeah I know You call me Your own yeah But I feel like the devil's home yeah Come into my heart and tell me who I am I tell myself I hate me all the time That's the reason I just stay inside Overthinking going through my mind I'm afraid that I'm not perfect in your eyes I tell myself I hate me all the time That's the reason I just stay inside Overthinking going through my mind I'm afraid that I'm not perfect in Your eyes Get no rest Always think what I gotta do next Always tellin me "you're not the best Gotta do better you're better off dead Gotta become what you see on your phone" Harder to breathe and I'm feelin alone Give me a reason to not pull the trigger "You gotta be bigger man you'll never blow" Feel like a criminal Feel like a prisoner I'm gettin sick of it Feel like a hypocrite Jesus You told me You're here in the midst of it Don't really care I just wanna get rid of it Wondering in my mind if I will die with this Got me confused what the point of the Bible is Feel like a battle inside of my head every second I'm bitter I don't wanna die with this no Yeah Jesus come clean up my soul yeah I know You call me Your own yeah But I feel like the devil's home yeah Come into my heart and tell me who I am I tell myself I hate me all the time That's the reason I just stay inside Overthinking going through my mind I'm afraid that I'm not