Brighter Days

Brighter days Let me take a seat, better yet, lie down. You could tell anxiety by the way I sound. No i don't wish I'd die right now But I wish I was high right now And if I lie, put a needle in my eye right now But the one I needed in my life right now Is the reason I think I'm losing my sight right now Dude looking at me like how? Well The person who I thought was so heavenly Used crack heavily during her pregnancy So the city by the sea was seen by me wit crack cocaine dripping thru an iv. Ugh. Pre0mie baby. incubator. Kept me there til I kicked the habit. Could have been dead could have caught the fader But ya boy magic like the hat n the rabbit Never thought she'd try to kill me And no i don't think it was intentional But if you did it, lost custody n still didn't stop, Well, to be honest, I don't know. They still let you take me, I don't even know why Probably cuz your system ran out all the co-ca And im not bashing cuz you think you did ya best But you contributed to this hole in my chest. Chorus: Got to be a brighter day where everything will be ok When the night so dark, you can hear me say, please lord take me away Got to be a brighter day where everything will be ok No matter where you are it's not that far just a few hours away 20 years later as I re.vis.it. Our really abusive re.lation.ship. You still can't admit to the shit you did Talking to me like you got un.limited kids So if you lose the love of one, eh no big I'm his mother, respect is what he has to give Even if I call him a stupid muthafucka, a 30 year old child and a son of a bitch. ugh. I'm the only one you cant have no more. We're family, what we need to keep score for? And all those things you said when you were mad Comes multiplied when rage comes from sad Then you wanna say that's white boy shit To be really real that's hype boy shit Cuz if I did you like that, you wouldn't like that shit. You even said you was gon get yo clique. Beat my ass n knock my head off a clown Word for word this how it sound "you better be glad I don't have your address, cuz I might come n burn your mother fucking house down" Why the hell would you say that? About the place where yo grandson lay at? I don't understand what's in your head. But if that's the case, consider me dead. f*ck! Chorus: Got to be a brighter day where everything will be ok When the night so dark, you can hear me say, please lord take me away Got to be a brighter day where everything will be ok No matter where you are it's not that far just a few hours away So from this point forward, ima do you like you do me And if your feelings get hurt. sue me. All yo friends that from the old block that thought they knew me, the ones you said helped to groom me. The ones you cant remember leaving me with when you was doing you living life like the movies. N I was wide awake, counting the lies n fakes wit a knife to make sure they wont do me This is the unbroken version of the new me. oooh wee