January First

Last year was a broken heart We both needed it to make it this far I'd hold you in the back of the car And think "Hey, at least I'm not on my own" Is that how love's supposed to go? At the very least it's all that I know Even if its quite the burden to carry I hold your hand but I remain weary Cause I didn't plan on making it past January Misguided, excited, we're nothing if not contrived, so Misguided, excited, we both know we're too far divided, so I'll pull you close so I can mean that I miss you I'll write you texts that feel like all your favorite songs I'll tell myself I feel better when I'm here with you I know you're not the one but at least someone's here at all You're not my soulmate, but my soulmate's not here and now We know that we both want reprieve Even though staying would be so easy The more hindsight we get, the less clearly we can see What if having someone made us both so ecstatic That we became creatures of habit Who didn't care what love was or if we had it Didn't know you, but, hey, at least I found a date If all of this were real, I never would have prayed That if nothing else I'd have someone on Valentine's Day Dividing, colliding, we know we're both not trying, but, Dividing, colliding I've never seen a love uninviting, but I'll pull you close so I can mean that I miss you I'll write you texts that feel like all your favorite songs I'll tell myself I feel better when I'm here with you I know you're not the one but at least someone's here at all You're not my soulmate, but my soulmate's not here and now Don't want to forget you auld acquaintance But all we do is silence I'm starting to think a three month streak Is all we're meant to be Should you be never brought to mind I should never have asked you to be mine I'm wondering now, I'm thinking out loud Is it worth a kiss on New Years Eve? When I I'll pull you close so I can mean that I miss you I'll write you texts that feel like all your favorite songs I'll tell myself I feel better when I'm here with you I know you're not the one but at least someone's here at all You're not my soulmate, but my soulmate's not here and now Can there, even be hard feelings When there was never much of anything real between us Maybe all along an anchor's all we needed Maybe a special someone's far overrated Maybe this wasn't meant to be created Maybe I didn't need love I just needed to be aided Maybe we didn't wanted romance we just wanted to feel entranced It's not fate but it's something like happenstance Maybe all along we were working towards another school dance