Denver

Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be (uh-huh) So many losing hope in those dreams that they Walking past the homeless in a Rolex Just got off the stage on the Today Show and I basically felt soulless Years go by and I keep saying I'm gon' use my phone less But I should just be phoneless Ignorance is bliss and so is being underground 'Cause it was fun when we were known less Sorry, that's cliche, I know I'm so blessed But Jason keeps on telling me, "Say yes" And truth be told, I know he knows best But I don't want do no press I've seen enough of me on this lil' screen I've become so vain and insecure 'bout everything I feel all this pressure to live up to what they tell me I'm gon' be So I isolate myself, you can't help me, it's on me I'm hiding any sign of weakness from my guys I don't want 'em second-guessing with me Nemo said to keep my foot on necks 'cause I can't let 'em just forget me But the brags in my raps are getting less and less convincing So I'd rather just Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be So many losing hope in those dreams that they I wrote that first verse in Denver, back in September It's January now and I'm feeling like myself again I got Angel back in here, I need his help again I'm taking time away but wondering what a healthy helping is F*ck it, they gon' check for me I tell myself and tell my friends Avoiding any talks about the elephant Chalking up the hate to jealousy and just embellishments But deep down, I find myself wondering If the people that write about me are right about me And I wonder if my exes are oversharing 'cause they know a lot about me I'm a long way from Shelby County I been thru some local tension, heard talks of a healthy bounty Sober and focused, I cannot walk down no deli alleys I still got the fellas round me, I love 'em and tell 'em proudly My mama needs help adjusting, my father needs help accounting I'm lookin' out heavens window, I know that there's hell around me Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be So many losing hope in those dreams that they