Clay Vessel

As the sun goes down on the hill, I'm walking home alone Repeating offices with downcast eyes Every now and then, I kick the flints Back against the wall, not to stumble and fall Peacefully the ritual goes like the river Next to me, nothing has really changed On the horizon I see a crossroad coming up And it's too late to wish it all away I've never been what they call a lionheart A clay vessel among the iron ones How far can I go without stepping up? Avoiding everything that stands in my way Living in the comfort of habits, fears and doubts I tell myself I've got much to lose But now all of those words sound like an excuse Why would I leave this life for a fresh new start? It's tearing me apart Truth has a threatening face And accepts no compromise This is no time for innocence And I am no saint I found protection in a cassock And convenience in the Cross Without craving to believe in miracles and the Holy Ghost I thought I was safe Same old story, life has proved me wrong Unprepared for choosing on my own How far can I go without stepping up? Avoiding everything that stands in my way Living in the comfort of habits, fears and doubts I tell myself I've got much to lose But now all of those words sound like an excuse Why would I leave this life for a fresh new start? It's tearing me apart Apart Devil knows my faith ain't strong enough So tell me God what I'm supposed to do now How far can I go without stepping up? Avoiding everything that stands in my way Living in the comfort of habits, fears and doubts I tell myself I've got much to lose But now all of those words sound like an excuse Why would I leave this life for a fresh new start? It's tearing me apart