Retirement

I stare inside the mirror and I swear I exist And when I get a little lonely I don't care who I'm with Three months, she's pissed and then she dares me to dip Told her "I gotta stay alone or else I'm perishing quick" 'Cause see I got a set of rules and I don't care if I'm strict And now she's probably out there wishing I would stare at her tits And when I f*ck up try to picture all my parents as kids And when I f*ck up I know they think I've been careless as shit Like I'm missing motivation Not home and my room is vacant My goal is to stay afloat so I don't care if I'm missed And my father saw me crying, I'm embarrassed as shit So when you check up on the gram I bet it's barren as shit Because you gotta keep it honest with despair in my pics And you don't wanna listen when I'm sharing my shit I love the snare and the kicks, but you don't care about shit So now I'm running out in traffic I don't care if I'm hit See what I said F*ck