Day's Like This

I use to cry myself to sleep back when I couldn't eat After my mom couldn't defeat cancer I use to cry myself to sleep after she left me Couldn't stand on my two feet Most days I wish I could take her place in the grave Cause I feel like a slave and I hate it I feel jaded But I'm more creative maybe one day I won't feel like I'm hated From my family cause I'm the black sheep All my brothers have degrees And I'm ready to be on my own far from home But I'm 25 living in living in my dad home Praying that he kicks me out Cause I can't Justify paying rent when I can live for free Save money buy a yath or what ever else I want Everyday I thank the universe that I'm alive That I survived to fight another day I use to cry myself to sleep back when I couldn't eat After my mom couldn't defeat cancer I use to cry myself to sleep after she left me Couldn't stand on my two feet Turned to drugs to defeat the pain no matter what I tried I could not stop the rain Spent my days paranoid That my dad was next had no faith had no faith had no faith in the lord It's been ten years since my mom died And I say I'm fine but that's not how I feel Been ten years since my soul died And I look alive but I'm dead on the inside Everyday I thank the universe that I'm alive That I survived to fight another day