Change

''Where have you been?'' they ask me Doing f*ck all to be honest Yeah I still write but i feel a bit calmer,  I don't really get involved with the drama I do what i want, don't worry bout karma  Got a family that's really what matters I'm not talking 'bout blood I'm talking people who don't give me no damage Take what I can so I never getting famished Never look back at the people that I banished  If I get hurt give a f*ck 'bout a bandage I got love and that's really all the management i need Not people who f*ck me over in greed Tell me I'm ''quiet'' I say ''agreed'' I dont talk shit now I don't got shit to say unless its positive No negative talk, I abolished it Look back at all my accomplishments  Not good enough, I acknowledge it I'm coming for the throne, 'long as people know They can no longer touch me, uncontrollable I'm up in the hills, I'm up inside I can breathe, don't feel like I died I feel amazing, I look up to god All of the people around me alive Thats good enough just to keep me going I got regret but I live in the moment I no longer move like a ronin Tell me I ''changed'' and I say ''I know it''  I kick back and I reminisce All of the time with the boys that I miss Traino with Ryan We talking about everything that we'd do when we out of this bitch Out of this struggle Depression and pain wasn't subtle But I overcome it I'm fucking in trouble again It's not a surprise I hate everything and this home I despise Surrounded by drugs, unbelievable So much so that I forgot it's illegal Talking to people I once knew Is like speaking to strangers like I'm on Omegle Slurring their words and they be OD'ing now Stuck in a box, they don't want to be around They're violent They're idolising these artists and they want to be it now It's a cycle of violence Showing its prevalence with every time that another one dies and Going to keep spinning the record until it go diamond Don't get me wrong Music really isn't the problem Nah It's these kids trying be something  When they're not something and we robbed them of a childhood It ain't reciprocal love It's a miracle not being difficult When you are one individual Independent with no counter measures or life lessons You missed that You shoulder the weight of the world Bitch slapped by life It's never too late to be different and change, right? I was sitting at a cross roads Another dumb motherfucker who's heart froze Insecure and insensitive Front like a good guy but it's irrelevant Because you're not one and you're so empty Not viewing these people as real things They got real lives and they got real feelings You never realised truth hurts You are in pain And lately it's driving you insane Who's real, who's not when you're fake Fake smile, fake heart, fake trust F*ck love, that's fake love If it's coming from you it ain't love It's fake shit You are destined to hate yourself and never change it