Parking Lot

I'm sitting here in this parking lot Reminiscing I'm talking to god I'm the one guy that nobody want Silent while everybody's talking a lot The preyed on getting prayed on And my mind is stuck on replay And every thought isn't mine It's a damn shame that we ain't talk in a while And now we'll be together in this parking lot You robbed me of my heart Yeah that's felon (fell in) love I murdered every single thought No judge meant (judgement) when I told you my verdict is done Yet that ain't really what I'm feeling on my inner is it? My heart be in it but my mind isn't No college fund I never been one to be into wishing (in tuition) So I got no fucking clue what I'm doing as soon as school finish Besides you It's all really fucked up now You told me you'd be patient But I'm a cancer Depersonalisation takes hold of my body inside Makes it hard for me to be what you deserve I'm caught between putting you first or me first You got my heart with a padlock and a key turn Always find a way no matter the bridges we burnt Trusting in god How can it be any different? You give me a piece of heaven When I'm around you there's no ground to fall on my knees You got my ass through high school Like all of my homies who came to school high I ain't never been one to get educated with suit & tie We already been tried it again like two times But now it's too late for apologies and now I'm I'm sitting here in this parking lot Reminiscing I'm talking to god I'm the one guy that nobody want Silent while everybody's talking a lot The preyed on getting prayed on And my mind is stuck on replay And every thought isn't mine It's a damn shame that we ain't talk in a while And now we'll be together in this parking lot You robbed me of my heart Yeah that's felon (fell in) love I murdered every single thought No judge meant (judgement) when I told you my verdict is done Yet that ain't really what I'm feeling on my inner is it? My heart be in it but my mind isn't No college fund I never been one to be into wishing (in tuition) So I got no fucking clue what I'm doing as soon as school finish Besides you Don't cry for me I'm not worth your tears Everything is so small when we're sitting up here in this parking lot Resembling my mind Cause it's empty and it's dark But I got you to feel fine I seen addiction before but nothing to near to What I'm feeling now and i got wheel (will) to steer you Key in the ignition I'm overthinking I hear you F*ck it I'm a shut up Enjoy the night like i'm here to