Confide

Getting nightmares every night Too many secrets to hide yeah, yeah The truth is I'm always second choice A fall-back option And I don't get the luxury of saying no Cos then nobody wants me It's a trap, because, I'm never picked, and I'm sad And if I slump down again I'm scared that that'll be that I'm trying to open up to people But they just think it's funny I get home and don't eat nothing Life ain't sweet like honey Seems all time I'm tired And my brains always drained I'm always running on empty so I'm Sorry that I'm dull again I don't smile cos I don't feel it I don't come across as enthusiastic I just constantly want to lose it But life put restraints on that shit It's not fair when you think about it I have who I am and you don't understand it And really it ain't fine cos I'm turning to the joker And it's just driving me batshit People say that you could never know what the future holds But really I don't care It'll what'll be, cos I have no self belief I got ideas though and really that is all me I guess I'll keep trying cos what's the point in not I'm passed suicidal where I realised what I got Failure after failure just shooting the wind Maybe I'm tryna find someone to confide in It was mounting and mounting Became harder to climb Felt like I was going nowhere Waiting for that all night Getting nightmares every night Too many secrets to hide I guess I don't feel alright It's all on my soul and mind The sun never rose so I gave up watching Why did that guy ever care when I clocked in Bully me, bully me, come and get your knock in Felt too much so I also gave up wanting My feelings switched off and just like that My life went to shit but my mind was back on track And I don't look back on what caused all of that I stop myself from crying cos I don't want it back My favourite colour as a kid was always black Weird one I know, and I always sat Alone in my room away from fam Where I could be me and figure out who's Jack Always getting shown, what I lack Not a single a set-back could stop me making tracks Trying so hard, to never slack Cos I'm my own nightmare and that's a fact Getting nightmares every night Too many secrets to hide I guess I don't feel alright It's all on my soul and mind Getting nightmares every night Too many secrets to hide I guess I don't feel alright It's all on my soul and mind I don't attract like no magnet Painting this all on my pallet I gotta break all these habits It's only me that I'm having Getting nightmares every night Too many secrets to hide I guess I don't feel alright It's all on my soul and mind