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Your eyes glimmered different when the mirror dropped The sparkle and the shine had now become lost A glimmer that once before had always been soft Had found its way to being a forgotten thought Once confide in you the shit I'd never talk Secrets just for you, though, we were never caught Yeah, I lost that for me but at what a cost? A toxic relationship that we never bought Battles after battles that we never fought Saw it unfold, I just saw back and watched I guess I do admit I did that shit a lot I could've picked a battle and gave my thoughts I see what I had got and now I count my loss Seated at the table staring at your spot Recollecting time while my stomach in knots What happened to that kid and all the shit he was taught I don't wanna' get older No, no, no, no, no I don't wanna' get older No, no, no, no, no I feel the past when it look over my shoulder I see the kids, watch as they get older and older Runnin' home from school, room lined with posters Not a worry on the mind about what's growing closer Spending all the time clickin' shit on controllers Now he's worried about stayin' sober and closure Not caught up in the past or even happy it's over A realist approach that knows it only gets lower Skeletons in our closest knowing I'm their owner You got some in there too, don't pretend I'm a donor We got out fair share of all that shit to get over I'm just glad we took the time to look at shit slower Pictured us together but there's too much exposure You were walkin' to my tune but I'm not a composer I've struggled for months just to keep my composure What happened to that kids before the time that he know her? I don't wanna' get older No, no, no, no, no I don't wanna' get older No, no, no, no, no The things you used to say to keep me by your side Missed that time of month and you told me it's mine I told you for life, you were my ride or die Lookin' back now I know I'm out of line That feeling I got, still feel it in my spine Memories took me back to a time I was nine Baseball cards with different slots I'd assign I crave that innocence, that's my fatal design Faced with reality that I was strapped for time Months down the line, maybe something like nine Couldn't think straight, that was my fatal design To learn she's fucking with me left me barely alive You took so much from me, you always took it in strides There's nothing left for me to even make a new life And after all this you can't look in my eyes What's the fucking point, I can't glimmer inside You had me thinking I was gonna' have to provide Couldn't think about my pride or the times that I cried I was forced into a role and I would have to comply Wanted to f*ck my morals and runaway to just hide What happened to that kid who would love a surprise? Jayden, Jayden Yo, yo, yo, yo, yo Yo, yo, yo, yo Yo, yo, yo