Sorry for Loving You

My brain must not be screwed in right It’s like I cry, while I rip the wings off butterflies Trying to capture that same feeling bout 1000 times Cus I let it go, then I let it keep me up all night If we met when we were 32 Then maybe I’d be good for you But every time I love someone It’s like I'm in a déjà vu I blamed it on mental health I blamed it on lack of wealth I blamed it on distance I blamed it on everybody else The things you say I make you feel I’ve heard them all before somehow Now I see it’s me who’s fucks up everything all by myself I’m sorry for loving you I hate myself for leaving too I wish that I had an excuse But I’m sorry for loving you I’ve been sorry from the start I built you up to fall apart I can’t explain the things that I do But I’m sorry for loving you When I try I only make it worse I never cried but that doesn’t mean I never hurt Trust me when I say that You don’t want my love it’s cursed It’s darker than dark But it was real, for what it’s worth It looks like I’m collecting ex’s Eating hearts for breakfast I must fall in love for fun, sit back and look at what I’ve done You think I’m proud of making you cry I can see why, I’ve done it so many times Stubbornness made me heartless Turning my back after we fight When waters cold I let them drown Same words out of different mouths Now I see it’s me who fucks up everything all by myself I’m sorry for loving you I hate myself for leaving too I wish that I had an excuse But I’m sorry for loving you I’ve been sorry from the start I built you up to fall apart I can’t explain the things that I do But I’m sorry for loving you I tried but I’m no different Cus I lied, to get my way I’d die before I listen I’ll never learn from my mistakes I’m sorry for loving you I hate myself for leaving too I wish that I had an excuse But I’m sorry for loving you I’ve been sorry from the start I built you up to fall apart I can’t explain the things that I do But I’m sorry for loving you