How To Change

One two three four I got extra on my shelf just in case I wanna do it But I tell you that I won't, no I tell you that I'm through it Maybe if I keep on lying it will one day be the truth but not today Felt I had to tell you dear just to let you know my feelings Even if you disappeared I would still stare at my ceiling I'd imagine what would happen if we made it through the darkness just the same There's something in the sand That makes us feel this way But I don't understand How to change I got extra in my drawer just in case I wanna smoke it I hope honestly I won't cause it messes with my focus If I lose my mind again I'm scared I'll never get it back so I'm afraid Had to get it off my chest I will confess I've been a liar Lighting matches in a circle starting tiny little fires Burning down all of the bridges that I could have walked along another day There's something in the sand That makes us feel this way But I don't understand No I don't understand Oh I don't understand how to change Cut