Love In Remission

The mind of the younger Hungry for knowledge Hungry for some change Hungry for guidance Coasting this plane and having no one to pilot Feeling deranged with no visions of rising I know the pain cause I grew up without it Remember my mama being disappointed Cause I didn't know the story Of slaves that came before me And notice i said slaves before me Cause we all still mentally in slavery Through this system form of controlment But back to the track Mama how I'm suppose to face facts When in school I followed the rules to know they didn't even teach that I mean we knew about the martin's and the Malcolms and the Harriets and Rosas The Frederick Douglas's That was the most of what we learned Or maybe cause I was distracted by the actions taken in the hood I'm sorry that I was so attracted to ratchets and goods It's gonna be hard to try and recap what I misunderstood But just know jack is doubling back to re-track what you couldn't teach us And mama I ain't blaming you I ain't saying it's your fault I understand we went through the struggle You know You raising three kids by yourself Back and forth to work, no car I understand So I ain't saying it's your fault this song isn't about you It's just a part of it My mama worked two jobs Footing it back and forth Couldn't afford to put any effort into our course I understand that we was too poor to have chores Getting allowances So I stole candy and sold it to stack up like accountants My level of skills for streets and books were off balance Started seeing myself as a crook was the right talent Pops not in the picture but his figure was demonic Wanted nothing more but to explore my sisters body privates Damn Innocence was torn Body and souls torched Mentally scorned, mindset forced If that nigga was home now i'd turn him corpes Then I think about my daughter, I ain't tryna go to court Cause i'm her only father, without me she'll be destroyed I'm building her into a scholar Something that I can be proud of Not a lawyer or a doctor but having a business prosper Cause in this world it's hard to be black and get honored Ain't no liberty Rebellious black man if I don't die then they'll sentence me If I take a stand i realize they'll put a end to me I guess ima die like pacit ain't no fear in me My quotes full of hope I pray to god that they'll remember me Won't fold nor won't choke but i'm not what they pretend to be I'm small with the heart of a giant you can't belittle me I'm fighting through the troubles for the triumph I'll get the victory, yeah