Happy Ending

So scared of getting old I watch my life unfold (from the background) In retrospect it's funny I thought that I could be somebody But now I'm right back where I started And I've never been so broken-hearted Do you know what my greatest fear is? A part of me is permanently hardened I turn to the little things To take me far away from this place It's so embarrassing how You are a part of me still I went and gut myself out Ready to die on that hill Meet me on the way down I know that you never will It's so embarrassing how You are a part of me still