Thirty Despairs A Year

Do you want me to go Do you want me to stay Do you want to protect me Do you have the strength I've been waiting so long The night's been a thrill But deep down I'm alone I guess it's just a fling Thirty despairs a year I caught myself in a prayer I can't feel my own fire No more, I'm a liar Thirty despairs a year I caught myself in a prayer I can't feel my own fire No more, I'm a liar I did not fall in love I just fell apart I fell hard on the floor On my knees to implore I fell hard on my own damn sword Now I limp my way forevermore Both my feet do feel sore From breaking down every door Thirty despairs a year I caught myself in a prayer I can't feel my own fire No more, I'm a liar Thirty despairs a year I caught myself in a prayer I can't feel my own fire No more, I'm a liar