hate you, date you

I wanted to hate you I wanted to make you go away Now I want to date you Don't know how to make you want to stay I'm having a breakthrough Don't know how to make it through today So I'll just sit and wait for you to open your mouth Because the more that you talk The more illusions come out And I keep trying to justify These thoughts in my mind that I Want to feel special But I shouldn't settle For just anyone who happens to catch my Eye I'm just gonna hurt you But what's the worst I could do Addicted to perfume And all those words you consume Red flags should alert you But this little curse isn't breaking soon So just sit and wait for me to open my mouth Because the more that I talk The less you'll want to be around And I keep trying to justify These thoughts in my mind that I'm Missing my common sense You're causing all my stress You're just somebody who happened to catch my Eye I'm in love with the way my mind portrays you But reality I fear my dear betrays you I'm in love with the way my mind portrays you But reality I fear my dear betrays you And I'm missing my common sense You're causing all my stress Want to feel special But I shouldn't settle It's just a crush gonna blush Making me think too much Why even try You just happened to catch my Eye