Blurry

[Verse 1] Who knew it’d take a tab to finally get me sane No one can run forever when they’re running from pain I can feel decisions from my past all start to make sense In how I’m seeing that they shaped me when I just needed friends In how I use my guilt to tell myself that I should be pressed It’s how I’m feeling when I write these words I’m used to the stress I’ve got my baggage packed it’s unresolved I act like everything’s in tact But I’m ashamed to be involved And freezing to avoid the fall Hate that I can wait I hate my patience Hate my ego too I wanna say I’m hungry but I do not like the food [Hook] This ain’t a joke to me But it’s kind of funny This ain’t a joke to me But I’m still running [Verse 2] I’m still looking for my limits I’m in shape with the seams Have I been lost within my feelings tryna find guarantees? I might just need a different sight of what it means to be free I might just need a sec to turn my view like ninety degrees Now I’ve got picky taste But I won’t say it’s so I need me out the way But I’m afraid to go Cuz I’ll forever take my time to figure out what this means But if I accept my blurry vision then I’ll finally see [Hook] This ain’t a joke to me But it’s kind of funny It’s kind of funny This ain’t a joke to me (This ain’t a joke to me) But it’s kind of funny (It ain’t a joke to me) This ain’t a joke to me (This ain’t a joke to me) But it’s kind of funny (It ain’t a joke to me) But it’s kind of funny If I accept my blurry vision then I’ll finally see