In My Head Again

It was all in my head I was up till 4 again Loving every minute man Staring at the ceiling fan I've become the ceiling damn Newest phase be feeling good I can feel the better plan I am still awakening I am not the one who ran Looked across the valley of the land Eyes are wide with wonder at the dance Cash me out of sinking in the sand I can feel the pressure that is there Left my seat in the industry But I wasn't being left behind Seeing an image of my real life inner dream Only sign on which I rely Come equipped with the technique And the best peace I know And I might wheeze but I will sit here though With a light leak in the deep parts I go So I see what I could be in flow I see that I must leave my woes I see that I can't lose my goals With high beams I will say I know I know, I know Maybe the story I'm telling myself has been digging a hole in my head And maybe the story I'm telling myself has been keeping me down in the depths Maybe the story you're telling yourself has been digging a hole in your head And maybe the story you're telling yourself makes you feel like you got nothing left Reaching back for what I think I lost Ashamed to say I think I still forgot The most important piece of any song The most important beat for any plot Always and forever is the start How can I believe in what I want If I won't even take a sec to pause And open to the place that I belong? It seems to me I'm in a Renaissance With only me to keep the feeling on Abundance isn't something that you solve It's faith in letting go of every block Faith in something deep within the heart Faith in something now you sit upon Maybe the story you're telling yourself is the Power behind all the pain you've been on It was all in my head It was all in my head Maybe the story I'm telling myself has been digging a hole in my head And maybe the story I'm telling myself has been keeping me down in the depths Maybe the story you're telling yourself has been digging a hole in your head And maybe the story you're telling yourself makes you feel like you got nothing left We live with our basic assumptions Don't question the fuel for the judgement Learn lessons unconsciously we're rushing from all the shit we don't see Rushing away before we feel seen Can't even take the chance that we're weak Keeping a list of sins we don't need Keeping ourselves away from our peace The Course taught me the guilt'll run deep Truth came first but lies'll still bleed Root of our problem buried underneath But the root of the tree is still at our feet Lately the ball of trauma been rolling back And I'm caught in problems I thought had past And I wonder bout if I'll turn to weed But I follow something more apt than that Proof is in this the fruits of my wishes Turn my stories into only forgiveness Look at em from a distance I wonder "What is this?" "What is this?" It was all in my head It was all in my head It was all in my head