Quit (Demo)

Maybe I'll quit after this one Maybe I'll leave after this one Maybe I'll quit after this one Maybe I'll dip after this one Maybe I'll live after this one Maybe I'll die after this one Maybe I'll quit after this one Maybe I'll dip after this one Maybe I'll dip after this one Maybe I'll dip after this one So why do I see all decisions as extensions of my hell? How can I see I'm the victim that was beating on itself? Cause if I cannot remember which way I was running from or to Then maybe there's a subtle feeling deeper that I always knew Is this when I finally start to free me from a lack of truth? Or just a step along the way to plunging to a lower doom? What's the difference if I'm still dependent on me digging grooves? I'm thinking about the question but forgetting what it's pointing to I get so defensive Don't wanna be mentioned Don't wanna be tested on my mind I get so defensive I don't wanna listen I don't wanna give this a new light I'll go on still but now it's in vain If this ain't real then why should I wait? If this ain't real then when will I change? Why can't I change? Maybe I'll quit after this one Maybe I'll leave after this one Maybe I'll quit after this one Maybe I'll dip after this one Maybe I'll live after this one Maybe I'll die after this one Maybe I'll quit after this one Maybe I'll dip after this one Maybe I'll dip after this one Maybe I'll dip after this one There ain't no need for the schism if we acknowledge the pain There was a dream that was spoken that would be best for our ways I wish that I could just hold it but that just ain't what it takes I will be letting this go with the lightest touch of refrain If you keep up with the practice then its some miles away But just becoming the practice then makes it all just today You still engage in the passions but as a part of parades If I could tell you I would but we're just the parts in a play