Friends

Looking through the window watching them have fun Asking myself "oh no, what wrong have I done?" Am I the problem? Are they the problem? Years after years, very rarely hanging out Feeling guilty 'cause of not going their route Am I that boring? Scary, annoying? Tired of chasing, begging, trying once more, doubting to just feel in this one aspect so Lonely And what is a friendship's hard to define but even if a bit of attention they give me No, they aren't my friends No, they aren't my friends No, there aren't valid excuses Already is closed, the case No, they aren't my friends Working on my goals, from them there's no support It's like they don't care if I make it or not It's a me problem They're not the problem I'm so sorry if sometimes I overshare I wanna befriend them, they don't seem to care Won't seek attention Solving the problem Tired of chasing, begging, trying once more, doubting to just feel in this one aspect so Lonely And what is a friendship's hard to define but even if a bit of attention they give me No, they aren't my friends No, they aren't my friends No, there aren't valid excuses Already is closed, the case No, they aren't my friends No, they aren't my friends No, they aren't my friends No, there aren't valid excuses Already is closed, the case No, they aren't my friends Bad patterns, I'll break them, they're not good (and sometimes) Some just don't want to get to know you (ooh) Bad patterns, I'll break them, they're not good (and sometimes) Some just don't want to get to know you (but at least now I know) No, they aren't my friends No, they aren't my friends No, there aren't valid excuses Already is closed, the case No, they aren't my friends No, they aren't my friends No, they aren't my friends No, there aren't valid excuses Already is closed, the case No, they aren't my friends