Miserable

Thought that all sadness would stop if I just lived in evasion Turns out I'm sadder than before, been losing with life connection Late nights on the balconet wishing for a good destiny Still got a bit of hope but I'm unsure if that's something I'll get to keep And what would happen if I disappear? Maybe it's just one less cry for help to hear Feel like I'm wasting all my best years By feeling so powerless, hate living here I'm miserable I'm miserable Feeling tired and feeling numb So depressed, so almost done Have a lot of why's but I'm just miserable Everyday, survival mode, protective shield, no extra words Conversations with myself, overthinking 'bout overthinking All of my goals paralyzed, why can't all fix itself?, fear reigns Think I'm a misunderstood mess Incapable of succeeding And what would happen if I disappear? Maybe it's just one less cry for help to hear Feel like I'm wasting all my best years By feeling so powerless, hate living here I'm miserable I'm miserable Feeling tired and feeling numb So depressed, so almost done Have a lot of why's but I'm just miserable I'm miserable I'm miserable Feeling tired and feeling numb So depressed, so almost done Have a lot of why's but I'm just miserable Hope after waking up everything's okay in the morning If not I'm disappearing, this is too exhausting I know there may be people that love me But what ifs haunt me, there's a lot that's scary I'm miserable I'm miserable Feeling tired and feeling numb So depressed, so almost done Have a lot of why's but I'm just miserable I'm miserable I'm miserable Feeling tired and feeling numb So depressed, so almost done Have a lot of why's but I'm just miserable