ritalin n xanny interlude

Starting to feel that this ain't how I wanna live Couple pills to keep me concentrated, I might pop til I'm dead Ritalin right when I wake up, something else before the bed Xanax bars in someone else's name, late night can't feel my legs Paranoid as hell, feels like my whole life be closing in Serving packs behind my mama's back, just tryna turn it big Think I need to find a lawyer just in case they want my head Anxious then a bitch, out my mind but still gon' seem content Watch my shoulder, can't trust no one, know I'm really with the shit I been numbed out since a baby, can't find no more tears to shed My girl said she'd like to f*ck a girl, told her call her friend Can't you read between the lines? Cause we both know that you mine I get insecure as hell if ain't no money coming in I ain't worried bout my wife right now, I'm tryna stack this ten Bob and weave, I give girls they wings and then I up and leave Jesus piece, tryna cleanse my soul, God talking in my dreams