From Me a Million Miles Away

Dearly I don't even know if you can hear me Departed Hardly got a chance You were gone before we started Honestly I'm glad we had our heart to heart It's a part of what I have to offer in these works of art Used to look to you for approval Full of questions so confused Where the sense was when your trip was Scheduled and approved Left to ruminate mistakes I may have made Consumes my days A hint of looming angst stays Hidden in my brain and waits Still remember glimpses of Peeking at the other side Heaving, getting shivers All the times I thought I almost died Cracks in my back When the weight of life landed on me Should've cried Still don't understand why I can't Sadness amplified by the fact I'm still holding back How do I react Freeze up in my tracks Then I relapse Trapped inside these cycles Since you decided to fly home With no goodbye and no numbers I could put in my iPhone Sky full of stars looks farther than it ever was All because options wasn't obvious When first observed You deserve to talk with someone Lingering over every word To be heard is a blessing Everybody's not assured Earth in turn, one more day of working Nothing's earned, what's it worth I guess that you're the lucky one I guess that I'm the worst Let's return to when we used to burn to have a good night Learning constellations cascading in the moonlight She speaks to the Pleiades Wishing she would be with me Whisper interesting things And feel me on your frequency Shines a brighter fire in the eye I'm blinded frequently Easily, I would fall asleep as mama reads to me Recently, I don't get a peep Maybe once a week In the deep, rolling in the sheets I find no relief Maybe flawed I should pray to God Show me what I need Show me how to open up my heart To all of those who seek to harm me I'm just a man without an army And no armor on me Shout to higher powers But I doubt they hear me calling Crawling the Mojave On my hands and knees Sand beneath starts to char our bellies Leaving stinging streaks Come to me I can help the heat seems comforting Beaten by the sun Let me sweep you off your dusty feet Take your trust, place it safe in me Until the journey is complete Scenery is much in need The shrubs that shrivel here were green Thirst is a curse When water's a commodity Drinking from a leak Stealing someone else's property Ought to be branded as a thief Caught a robbery Every drop another notch He's grounded for coffee beans All I mean Keeping with what's current Is concerning me Can't sit and observe Without what I see disturbing me Worried cause people that I love Don't know what it does Ears plugged, eyes shut Clearly they don't give a... If you weren't a million miles away Stress would dissipate You could reassure me more securely When we're face to face Please believe me I can keep the faith I won't disobey Please believe me I can keep the faith I won't disobey Please believe me I can keep the faith I won't disobey Please believe me I can keep the faith I won't disobey Please believe me Please believe me Please believe me Please believe me Suburban assassin You better bring your ass inside I'm coming for your life In your window every night Suburban assassin You better bring your ass inside I'm coming for your life In your window every night You better recognize You better recognize You better memorize this face Or you might fucking die You better recognize You better recognize You better memorize this face Or you might fucking die F*ck a protest I put a hole in a CEO F*ck a protest I put a hole in a CEO F*ck a protest I put a hole in a CEO F*ck a protest I put a hole in a CEO F*ck a protest I put a hole in a CEO F*ck a protest I put a hole in a CEO F*ck a protest I put a hole in a CEO F*ck a protest I put a hole in a CEO