If you only knew

I've been trying so hard to survive Sometimes I think that I wanna die I feel so fuckin' guilty, cause God, I'm so lucky to live my life So I keep all the pain to myself Losing faith, but nobody can tell Mama don't want you worried, cause that would just hurt me So I pretend I'm fine If you only knew What my mind is telling me I should do That I'm drunk and all alone in my room Here tonight I'm too sad to cry, it's true Oh, if you only knew All the shit my brain is putting me through You can run and over straight to my room Here tonight I'm sorry, but I need you Oh, if you only knew I wish I was somebody else I'm coming to the overwind Now I'm falling again, getting drunk with some friends It's a silent cry for help I wanna get better, I want you to know That I can't do this on my own If you only knew What my mind is telling me I should do That I'm drunk and all alone in my room Here tonight I'm too sad to cry, it's true Oh, if you only knew All the shit my brain is putting me through You can run and over straight to my room Here tonight I'm sorry, but I need you Oh, take me out of this hell I'm somebody else Take me out of this hell I'm not myself I wanna tell you What my mind is telling me I should do That I'm drunk and all alone in my room Here tonight I'm too sad to cry, but I want to Oh, if you only knew