Lonely

I know that you were lonely So why'd you shut me out I thought you didn't love me I thought that you were proud Through all of the stumbling And all of the suffering You told me I was your hope But over and over You were quick to abandon me For darker places to cope Tell me I'm not a monster For hating you this way Hold me Whisper you're sorry And swear I'm not to blame I miss you I wish I could see you Embrace you once again And I would feel your pain And you would heal my shame I know that you were lonely But never saw the depth I wonder if I only Knew what you were against Would it have justified All of the empty times I looked for you in the crowd I couldn't forgive you When my heart wasn't satisfied With your excuses and vows Tell me I'm not a monster For hating you this way Hold me Whisper you're sorry And swear I'm not to blame I miss you I wish I could see you Embrace you once again And I would feel your pain And you would heal my shame At my graduation There's a hole in the cheer I don't get to hear Your hollers and your pride And on my wedding night You won't get the chance To watch as I dance With the partner of my life You let our future fall away When you refused support from me Tell me I'm not a monster For hating you this way Hold me Whisper you're sorry And swear I'm not to blame I miss you I wish I could see you Embrace you once again And I would feel your pain And you would heal my shame