Through the Night (feat. Landon Conrath)

Wait around, my feelings are too big for me I might drown, underwater ain't no way to see It's dark now, and clarity decides to flee Falling down, like now I'm dropping to my knees (To my knees) I'm on the ground shaking in anxiety No relief, I've reached full capacity For grief, like a thief, that's taken all my sanity Now I got that I'm not good enough mentality I can see the pain in your eyes, the remains of the tears you've cried The weight you carry inside, like you've been running your whole life I can see it all in your eyes, like waves that fall and rise How hard you have to fight, like you're just trying to make it through the night Sometimes I wonder, when God looks down, what does he see? Does he see a broken mess or does he feel empathy? Was I left for dead? I'm still waiting to be free Maybe one day I will find some form of remedy (Remedy) Until then I got a bunch of melodies Ringing words in my head, it is my specialty So, I grab a paper and pen and let the ink bleed What's coming out now, look at it carefully Couldn't make it to three without the dark touching me Brought with it the fear of basements and ailments so angrily I gathered up my faces in one place and carefully Entered into old spaces, like it was therapy And introduced myself to a boy who only wanted to be Accepted in this world, a joy to everyone that he sees Who finds love hard, cause his heart has learned to only recede From the emotional cuts and abuse, we can't find intimacy I can see the pain in your eyes, the remains of the tears you've cried The weight you carry inside, like you've been running your whole life I can see it all in your eyes, like waves that fall and rise How hard you have to fight, like you're just trying to make it through the night My thoughts and I used to get along, we were just fine Until they pulled their hoods up and tried to grab me from behind My past, it haunts me, caught up with me, just like old times I should've noticed I felt the chills in my spine Reminded me of times when I could barely read a sentence Was a little kid, caught alone, weak and defenseless It's been a long journey down this road to acceptance So, let me pause, and do some reminiscin' You couldn't do emotions so you always needed space, well I know It's not safe and you hate seeing your own face, well I know How you feel when you fakin' it 'till you make it, I know There's more to life than the pain you feel inside, so just go Run away and forget the people who left you alone They don't matter and won't stick around to see how you've grown I'm proud to be you, even with the hurt we went through to know What it means to do life with others, and not on our own Blood is dripping down my shins, got scrapes from the places I've been Kinda stings, like deep within, no more waiting, dig in Under pressure, I am pinned, beneath this rock inflicting pain But I won't let this weight keep me from speakin' For your sake, I'll let you in on my greatest weakness Of the things we've talked about, there's still a part in pieces A part of me that's far away, but for you, I'll reach in If you knew how much I love you, it would leave you speechless And I can see the pain in your eyes, the remains of the tears you've cried The weight you carry inside, like you've been running your whole life I can see it all in your eyes, like waves that fall and rise How hard you have to fight, like you're just trying to make it through the night And I can see the pain in your eyes, the remains of the tears you've cried The weight you carry inside, like you've been running your whole life I can see it all in your eyes, like waves that fall and rise How hard you have to fight, like you're just trying to make it through the night Cause you're just trying to make it through the night Cause you're just trying to make it through the night Cause you're just trying to make it through the night You're just trying to make it through the night