SO HARD 2 FORGIVE

This is not a poem as such, but it is a statement I know that much For all those people who feel so alone, filled with anger and hate Well, this is my message, I know you can relate And some of you may not, but the truth is This is all I've got, so hard so hard to forgive, but I'm trying It's so hard, so hard to forgive So I've been thinking, I've been thinking I've been thinking' to have the courage to tell you what I'm really feeling So hard to forgive, so hard, but I'm trying Once I was a scared little boy, oh boy, was I scared So scared, so scared, I tell ya That every day, the memories That I can remember, it made me feel like a failure Like I was some damaged goods with a bad abnormal behaviour So hard to forgive, it's so hard, so hard, but I'm trying So hard, but I don't forget They say there's always two sides to a story Well, this is my side of the story, but it's not filled with glory Ooh, no, not yet, not yet but I'm still gonna tell it And I'll get there, get there in the end my friend So I'll start from the beginning where all stories start I have so much to say, but little time to say it But I know what I want to say, and I know I want to share it For all those people who feel this way So sad and alone, it's so hard to forgive It's so hard to forgive, but I'm trying So hard, so hard, I hope you all wanna hear it Growing' up wasn't easy, there was lots and lots of beating and mistrust Even though I had two sisters, no brothers we never told each other how we felt But I felt so isolated and alone every day that I came home I didn't wanna be there, but I couldn't go anywhere else Even though I wanted to run away from home to Billy's house With this burden, I wanted to broaden my horizon But I had no knowledge about freedom, Billy's parents brought me back home to my parents' house I felt like a prisoner in a box, I felt so restricted I wasn't as clever as a fox to think outside of the box like my sister Jackie did Running' away from home to New York City I was beaten, I was broken, I was mentally drained Compliance was the name of the game, it made me stubborn and a little hard-headed I know some people are going' through the same kind of pain, and they feel so ashamed But they shouldn't have themselves to blame Because it's so hard to forgive so hard But I'm trying, but I'm trying I feel so lost, so lost There was no compassion from my parents, at least that's what I thought And now I shine every day like a new born sun And you don't have to be alone So please, please, please tell someone I know sometimes you want to be left alone When you're feeling down, always have someone around So you can get the help you need like I did I did Now I want to forget, but it's been So hard, so hard But I'm trying to forgive But I'm trying So hard, so hard But I'm trying To forget so hard, so hard