Soon I'll Be Fine (Old Endings)

My dads gone now, my souls changed I just can't let go of it now, of all the pain The tears come down, they come like rain I wish I could numb it all down, with some novocaine Over again now, and over again My mind is so locked and trapped now, I know it's a shame Thoughts of him passing now, show in my brain Wish I had more time to go over some things Here we go again, flow again life don't give a f*ck, no one's safe Here then you gone in a moment, good man dead no atonement Memories, memories gotta hold on to 'em close never loan it Wish I called more on the phone and, things never said didn't show it, yea These feelings got me feeling so beside Myself I wish I could postpone time The pain just hits I'm so unfocused I Feel like I'm becoming a different guy These feelings gotta run 'em out, yea I've been through it let the sun come out, yea Let the darkness pass I'm done I'm out, yea New beginnings let the fun come out yea so I'm telling you why Yea, man I'm telling you why Time to get mine yea I'm telling you why Leave it all behind yea I'm telling you why Old endings endings end in time soon I'm just gon' be fine My moms gone now, dementia came I feel so beside myself like, like I've gone insane Everytime we speak now, I feel the pain This disease took her now she can't, can't, be the same Disease took her mind, I can't be the same I'm so down and so heart broken, I can't explain Look into her eyes now, I feel ashamed 'Cause I can't fix it man life ain't the same, yea Here we go again, lights go again This shit don't make no sense (No sense) Life's playing sick jokes I'm tense (I'm tense) Life don't give a f*ck I'm spent (I'm spent) I need a break, a moment To get my thoughts in focus Can't even write i'm so pissed Lost a piece of me I'm hopeless These feelings got me feeling so beside Myself I wish I could postpone time The pain just hits I'm so unfocused I Feel like I'm becoming a different guy These feelings gotta run 'em out, yea I've been through it let the sun come out, yea Let the darkness pass I'm done I'm out, yea New beginnings let the fun come out yea so I'm telling you why Yea, man I'm telling you why Time to get mine yea I'm telling you why Leave it all behind yea I'm telling you why Old endings endings end in time soon I'm just gon' be fine Change gon' come one day yea yea and i'ma find my way I fell off of life's mountain yea, it fucked up my whole day Change gon' come one day yea yea and i'ma feel okay Old endings end sometime sunshine is right around the way I miss you pops, miss you bad yea When I think about, I get sad yea Gotta figure out where my heads at You'd wanna see me prosper, (Yea) I miss you ma, miss you bad yea When I think about, so sad yea Gotta wiggle out of this dredge yea You'd wanna see your baby boy shine too But right now I'm feeling shine proof Burying a parent defines you The pain you can feel it like a fine tooth A punch in the gut, man times two Watching you're other parent wither away It's just as bad, similarly I can't fix it if I wish it away Feeling so bad In the middle of May I sit and I wait, thinking of fate I know they both wouldn't want me to to just waste Opportunities cause I'm feeling a way Get ya head straight gwon head and be great Get ya head straight gwon head and be great Get ya head straight gwon head and be great Get ya head straight gwon head and be great So Ima be great, Ima be okay