LACERATE

Poisonous Brown recluse inside my head Dark secluded space to lay eggs She be spinning webs Predator within the prey Slave to my own inner ways What a peculiar case Wish I could put it at bay Too afraid to say so like a résumé I put on a pleasant face Rose tinted mindset frame Color still seems to fade Wade through grey Put on a pleasant face Rose tinted mindset frame Color still seems to fade Lacerate Go I wanna talk, but I don't think I will understand The very words don't exist for what is in my head So try and lacerate my mental space, what's in the red? Seems like the rage is stemming from something I cannot mend F*ck What do I do? Outta the blue I'm outta clues as to why My own mind likes to bind itself to poisoned vines It feels like I take pride in prejudice Therapist is sick of this My mind's a build-a-bear nemesis I'm fucking myself without any protection Looking for answers, not paying attention Maybe a remedy's ready for me Hell, there might even be a collection Now I face a game of "what do I change?" Roll the dice, all the same when I hate every part of me Put on a pleasant face Rose tinted mindset frames Color still seems to fade Wade through grey Put on a pleasant face Rose tinted mindset frame Color still seems to fade Lacerate Go I wanna talk, but I don't think I will understand The very words don't exist for what is in my head So try and lacerate my mental space, what's in the red? Seems like the rage is stemming from something I cannot mend