Sad Songs

Saving my thoughts for a better time Saving my time for a better thought Saving my mind for the day it don't grind And the weight of my life let's a little off Cuz it's been heavy as ever I used to head to my Jetta Back in 2011 to drive and silence whatever was goin' on Now I don't feel as close to Sean I don't feel as close to Soup I don't feel as close to anyone I said was in the crew And it's my fault feel their eyeballs shift From the other side of the drywall shit's getting tired y'all Should a been productive with my time off Friends who said I shoulda went to Taiwan: True 'Stead I'm writing my songs, that no one ever listens to It's tough because I only feel connection when I'm missing you But I don't wanna grab a beer, 'cuz I don't like the atmosphere Of anywhere I go, rather have it all alone, singing Sad songs 'Cuz that's what I need, and that's all I mean When I tell you please, don't know how to be But I'm feeling free, like shit, finally Uhhuh I feel at peace, just being me So let a kid be Uhhuh At least I can dream Uhhuh, Uhhuh While y'all still sleep, at least I got dreams But everything ain't what it seems, I swore I could be Someone on this Earth, the gift and the curses Tryna be perfect, old habits always resurface, shit serves a purpose Trust me But if y'all don't feel the same, I don't feel no shame They say how you 'bout to bench press to slow songs crazy While I was playing Frank, they want Bone Thugz' Blaze It Swinging for the fence, gotta choke up, baby Or feel the vibrations like you're Carlos Correa Bet my downstairs neighbor hates the way the floor be rockin' From the speaker, and the feet that's tapping every time I write a feature Play a beat, or freestyle rap, their pom-poms wavin' Like it's Corsicana, focused on manana Ain't no aur revoirs towards tomorrow, 'nor a ra-ra Me and my medulla oblongata ain't scared of nada So buck up, or you'll get run up, they raise the Sun up And I'm the son of a long line of veterans And far-sighted relatives who all hype benevolence And I should thank for all my intelligence to stay out of the petty shit the present brings 'Cuz my future's looking awesome Stay away from shame like I'm Emmy Rossum, still forever blossoming 'Til I shine like the sign out in Gotham Never been the type to rock a costume, same guy on the town as my apartment And everything in life has a compartment, until you start Sifting out the prints from all the inks up in the cartridge, to paint a portrait, and it's me But you can't tell the art from the poster Can't see the real from the fake love, no mistake love 'Cuz I only hear my heart when it's broken Still putting Tarts in the toaster, still think I'll start when I'm older Still face my cards like it's Poker Ace in my cardigan, straight but I'm guarding my Place 'til I take off and market that I just make Sad songs 'Cuz that's what I need, and that's all I mean When I tell you please, don't know how to be But I'm feeling free, like shit, finally Uhhuh I feel at peace, just being me So let a kid be Uhhuh At least I can dream Uhhuh, Uhhuh While y'all still sleep, at least I got dreams But everything ain't what it seems, I swore I could be Someone on this Earth, the gift and the curses Tryna be perfect, old habits always resurface, shit serves a purpose Trust me But if y'all don't feel the same, I don't feel no shame And if y'all need someone to blame, throw dirt on my name Like I can't run up the game, I'll stay in my lane But you and me ain't the same, I take that shit to the bank Take that shit to the bank, like I'm out at Wells Fargo Chilling out in Fargo, feeling well, hell as far as I know I could probably go by tomorrow, gotta see this out though Never gonna stop for the outro