Reflections

Family ties, I fantasize about days when they said I'm the one Feel like it went to my head because I can't stop pumping my head with this nonsense Give you a piece of my conscience Tryna find the line between this arrogance and confidence Do me a solid what do y'all suggest, but As I digress I found the finer things in my Godliness I've been told that I'm the reason people leaving can we have a meeting cause I got some questions Was it my life or was it the lessons I'm learning Discerning the things of this world or discovering purpose Like will it be worth in the end Do you find your worth in a benz Do you find your worth in the sin I see my brother is hurting and satan is working like he got my boy on the strings I see depression I see the lessons I'm learning would help if he just let me in I seen the pain in his eyes you cannot disguise the things that are happening within So It's kinda hard to see him I'm tryna hit the stage like colosseum And tell em what you taught me like I'm hard of reading And give em what they need no body fiending And if I wrote it down then I probably mean it And honestly been Thinking bout my pops, should I call to see him but Been thinking bout my pops, should I call to see him, What What did I do for your mercy cause I know that I ain't been holding you up What did I do to deserve you cause I know that you have been running my cup Over with love can you show me to trust Like you hold me like can you show me that you enough And that my present feelings ain't got nothing on you cause it's getting kinda tough Got my heart hung low cause when my anger comes its blows at the people close to me So I'm tryna go and reconcile I know it takes a while, denial been playing since a little child I apologize to the people that's been caught up in the cross fires of emotions off the wire On occasion my heart desire to skip on the word cause I overthink if something true Should I be looking for revelation or should revelation come from You I don't wanna force nothing but I don't wanna miss you when You move This send my brain in spiral when I cant decide if I'm tryna confide in the book But I can't hide from the Most High Cause He where I hide when I'm shook I heard if I die then I might find life, So I take kind to the push Praying and bringing requests to him So I can find peace reap blessed doings The lessons repeat so we kept viewing for real