Cheating

I'll murder the beat but it's murdering me Setting the oven 350 degrees Eating the dough right out of the freeze Hand in the cookie jar caught by a sneeze Now it's quacking as I try to pen Look over shoulder no peers in my lens Filling the bubbles as I try to guess Popping them quickly with swords unrelenting I'm scheming I'm scheming to get one leg up Pats on the back go break it go bluff Break through the cell door but I am not tough Storm through the bank vault but I'm not a thug Cheating I'm cheating to find my own way Hatin' I'm hatin' who I have became Improper grammar's a part of the game If you don't like it then laugh it away If you feel numb then laugh it away Take all those drugs flush in the drain Life's not a joke you can't laugh of the pain Life's not a joke you can't cheat that's insane Life isn't fair so everyone says Life's not a fair get out of your head Lines will be long you can't cut into place Life will be short you can't cheat in the race And I'm dreaming and I'm dreaming of these things that I'm conceiving What's the reason of this season This ain't Christmas whos to blame And I'm thinking and I'm thinking of the things that I covet not sure if I'll even love it do I really want the fame Selfishness inside of me feels like a shell outside of me that somehow didn't make a pearl but a reject of its shame That pearl is down the corner can I meet it at the border know I have all I need but can I please just reach Hands have been closed not ready to go Reaching with fists flying to there and fro -m back where I came from not ready to leave But I keep eyeing those beautiful trees And I keep eyeing those people I see Gouge out my eyes force me to cry This is lesson that I must retry This is a battle and I cannot die Pick up the axe strike from behind Stay in the shadows you're harder to find Do it in secret and you won't get caught That's from the devil and you are the plot Story's non-fiction and you are the diction Your set on a mission that's all about fishing, Casting your lines are like casting your lies And the harder you try the tighter they pry The harder you try the realer it gets Once you get caught hold all your bets Thought you were safe but its a façade Can't you recall the all-knowing God Can't you remember what you had before Gripping the sand it continues to pour Life wasn't perfect but it was enough Faithfulness Faithfulness it is a must Looking for love you had a lover Looking for peace you had your comfort I know you want more and it's only human In this day and age we keep on zoomin' Faster and faster and faster it goes When it will end nobody knows When will you stop nobody knows Cheating I'm cheating I'm cheating my soul And I'm dreaming and I'm dreaming of these things that I'm conceiving What's the reason of this season This ain't Christmas whos to blame And I'm thinking and I'm thinking of the things that I covet not sure if I'll even love it do I really want the fame Selfishness inside of me feels like a shell outside of me that somehow didn't make a pearl but a reject of its shame That pearl is down the corner can I meet it at the border know I have all I need but can I place my Idols are close blocking my view Like totem poles their totaling you Swervin and sskrtin around all the tracks Leaving their mark with the pedal to max I draw out the lines and come to a crash Everyone passed me as if I was trash Is this what I wanted I cannot relax What have I started I'm stepping on cracks and I'm breaking my back as I get out the car My legs are collapsing I'm stepping in tar Under the weight of the pain that I've caused Those that I've cheated were never this lost How did I speed to a dead end so fast Put up the white flag and cut down the mast Walking the plank trying not to fall Breeze keeps on blowing I've lost it all I'm the Prodigal son and I'm risking it all Got the Father on line and I'm ending the call I've made my choices so what can I say Cheating my loved ones and threw them in graves Give me my money give me my wants I'll speed to death if I want to or not I'll cause some pain to get what I want I'll cheat on them to gain more of me But oh who am I to think of such things I am but dust yet you are who's free Shepherding souls like the best referee Wandering sheep copied from me Faster and faster and faster it goes When it will end nobody knows When will you stop nobody knows Cheating I'm cheating I'm cheating my soul