Hate

We moving past We cruising fast No hate in here This real love lasts This Kindness separates irate Feelings that I must contain I know it's natural yet I try to blame Injure others with my pain I didn't mean it Sorry This is just the way that I was raised Just like Bruce Wayne Festering the anger through my freezing veins Ain't no shame Yet I maintain Renting rooms to hate Upset at why here is where it stays Sayonara to my peace And my joy and my hope I just want to have a piece Of some joy and some hope And I wish I knew a way to release all of this hate Maybe its my mental state Or the conduct of my faith It's got me looking at these hands of mine that I have often clenched What makes me dream of these scenarios in which I throw a fist Could it be that I'm protective of the ones I love around me Or could it be the fact that I made what I hate surround My favorite things have been arrayed with negativity Just like an artist that hates on their creativity Just like the Christian that can't stand their positivity Like many people that wrestle with their inner being Kindness is what I desire But I am tired If I was God I'd be the first one that I'd fire Yet He's gracious and has kindness just for me Lord you know what they did to me Kicked me to the curb then shunned Gutted out my heart then stunned My confidence in who I am is shaken and destroyed The freedom that I thought I had is misplaced by a void Forgiveness seems so far off yet you call me to employ With my mission That's the call Live with kindness All in all It's got me looking in this heart of mine that I have often tense What makes it fracture like a bone in the absence of my sense Could it that its been taking beatings since the day I was born All from myself I'm feeling hateful I will deal with it in the... Mourning all the people that I thought I had the capability to show kindness to and Searching for the opportunity in which I'm actually being kind to you But every time that it comes My loving heart seems to run Hiding from the possibility that it gets severely injured from my beating drum Hate you've cheating me for long enough you can leave but I can't shake you Forgiveness can you please come home you are what I need so I can grieve too How many times have I failed the Spirit's call How much disobedience caused by the fall I need your help to renew my spirit now What's necessary to you my will will bow My relationship's breaking I feel the earth quaking The clouds in the sky have been oddly rotating Or maybe that's me turned 180 degrees There's a new life before me I see the Son's glory With rays that are shining Through all the green leaves And the birds have been chirping My heart is restoring The hate that I had I just needed a story The hate is now gone I just needed your glory