Honky Tonk in HI (feat. Radiant Phaedrus)

He sent me a letter a couple weeks ago, which was a perfect example of a manifestation coming to life considering how much anticipation I have for our sailing adventure through Big Sur By the way he was talking about his voyage so far, it seems that our timing will line up I initially assumed it would be a breeze of a trip, but he made it clear how windless and blistering his days have been He explained how paradise is a slow death Paradise is a slow death I left to avoid a wildly early storm for the season and must admit that the month and a half it took to navigate down and through the panama canal was as bland as the saltiness I lived on I embarked on this trip hoping to confront a wildness I sensed caged in my chest, but spent more time staring into a serenity, a blue stillness that reduced me at moments to a rocking, wailing infant I really wish she had come with me There is no challenge as deep or as turbulent as a man's own boredom and loneliness When was the last time you were in a relationship? How did it go? It's funny we've never talked about this I'd reckon we have similar fears I'm so scared of commitment and my recent pursuit of my first real relationship has shown that I've used the same running shoes for the past 7 years; they were hand-me-downs from my high school cross country coach I can't convince myself to get rid of them Blind loyalty births complacency However, I'm often worried I'm always striving for better Should I paddle over to the better waves or have fun out front? There are a lot of things I really love about her She is in search of experiences at the expense of a traditional career path She began nannying for this family just over a year ago It seemed like a dream job, having time to travel and meet new friends