The Bottom

Haven't been sober Thinking about the reason all this is over I was all up in my head Even though I said I loved you Didn't believe in what I said 'Cuz I could no longer see the light at the end All the darkness covering the road And with every step I took it led me further To a life with you I needed to let go It wasn't in me I could give it to you girl I promised I could And what you gave me Didn't deserve any of that Not then, not now Now that I need you more than ever You're nowhere to be found And I know that it's all my fault Hope you hear me calling out And I realize when I think of you My whole body goes numb I start pulling from the bottle 'Til I know I've reached the bottom 'Cuz I still love you Well I guess that slipped out baby I know I missed out baby I finally realize that it's true I keep running back 'cuz I still believe I keep running back 'cuz you're what I need Even though you haven't forgiven me It wasn't in you You couldn't stay with me no more Too Toxic And girl I get it Didn't deserve nothing from you Not then, not now Now that I need you more than ever (Now that I need you with me) You're nowhere to be found (You keep hiding) And I know that it's all my fault (I know that the blame is on me) Hope you hear me calling out (Calling out) And I realize when I think of you (It's every time) My whole body goes numb I start pulling from the bottle (No, no) 'Til I know I've reached the bottom It wasn't in you You couldn't stay with me no more Too Toxic And what you gave me Didn't deserve any of that Not then, not now