Anhedonia

Everything's working On the surface Even blooming If we're being honest I've laid your bones To rest And made amends There's not much left But I get no pleasure From all the pain I see the fruits of my labour But I'm empty all the same I ape the motions Of a happy man Though I feel I've been couched To think I understand Truth be told I have no proof I'm more emboldened By the untold truth Oh beneath the lake A million miles away I left my happiness It's still there to this day It's a trade off For the secret I want it back Cuz I can't keep it Truth be told I have no proof I'm more emboldened By the untold truth It's a blessing In disguise As unpleasant as it is A curse in my eyes