But I'm Doing Okay

A curse describes this year It brought a sinking ship It showed an ugly fear It gets uttered on my lips And then it slips A knife across the neck Utterly circumspect The time I spent in heck Not what I'd expect But I'm doing okay now It made me strong I can't say how But it feels wrong But I'm doing okay now It made me strong I can't say how But it feels wrong Camera stares me in the eyes You can see my face a thousand times Deflecting questions of why Reflecting all the thought crimes There is no consequence To loving the future first To shun the present tense Our goals lay bare the worst But I'm doing okay now It made me strong I can't say how But it feels wrong But I'm doing okay now It made me strong I can't say how But it feels wrong Lying on my back In the hot sands All the words I lack For how I held your hand The strange, calm sea For all its glory deep Couldn't drown your plea For the eternal sleep But I'm doing okay now It made me strong I can't say how But it feels wrong But I'm doing okay now It made me strong I can't say how But it feels wrong