Double

Fifteen years ago I made a decision Like any other before There was no wishing Just a conscious effort To be a good man Only one of those I carried forward I do what I can Well it's not good enough And it never was Just a lot of fluff And no reason, just because The trail ran cold When you severed all ties With friends new and old Who had told little lies Who knows if you get to lead a double life Who knows if you get to lead a double life I'm a peacock With my plumes gone grey A flightless bird walking Past my heyday A kind word that hits you Right in the gut When everything you knew Is flipped downside up Who knows if you get to lead a double life Who knows if you get to lead a double life Shocking I know That I forgot all the reasons You finally let go Of the memories that displeased you And if you threw out The baby with the dirty water Maybe you knew about The hurting for longer