Bottle On The Counter

There's a bottle on the counter whispers my name Promises relief but leaves me in shame I drink to forget but the pain never fades Just memories of Momma and the choices I've made I'm lost in this darkness tryin' to stay strong Fightin' these demons though they're pullin' me along For my kids' sake I gotta hold tight But the weight of it all keeps me up every night Kids look at me like I'm the one who's strong But inside I'm shattered everything feels wrong Their smiles are the light in my empty days But I'm drowning inside hiding the pain away I'm lost in this darkness tryin' to stay strong Fightin' these demons though they're pullin' me along For my kids' sake I gotta hold tight But the weight of it all keeps me up every night Sometimes I feel her like she's still here Her voice in the silence calming my fear If only I could turn back the years Maybe I'd face this not drown in these tears And I know I'm slippin' need to change my ways For my kids' sake I gotta find brighter days But the weight of this loss it's too much to bear So I pour another drink and pretend she's there I'm lost in this darkness tryin' to stay strong Fightin' these demons though they're pullin' me along For my kids' sake I gotta hold tight But the weight of it all keeps me up every night One day I'll break free put the bottle away Find peace in her memory face a new day Till then I'll keep tryin' no matter the cost To be the father they need through all that I've lost