Signs

I wake up every day I don't where I've been I don't what to think And I cannot say I want to be awake I want another day And I don't need to know If I am alright I guess I'll never know I'll take it on my own And I don't know Why I am And I don't know If I can Three hearts or my one club I'll fold my weaker hand The best I ever had It's not the deal I made Against the two of me It's time that I concede Another inch of blood I'll draw it down to luck The best of what it is There's more than I can give Counting the days again Just one more hour to try to take All the thoughts that add the weight A future I cannot hold More questions asked than answers told I'm fighting to find my control I'm waiting on the wrong side Waking at the wrong times Tell myself some more lies Holding out for my mind Retract back from the signs I can't seem to bring myself to