Drift

My thoughts are out of focus They drift among the dust & stir up my emotions Which I could never trust Covered by erosion They're sunken one by one So I swallowed all the ocean Yet, all I could taste was rust Break your promise and look in my diary What you find might be downright surprising Page on page of increasing anxiety I've been trying to hide Even though it breaks my heart I will find a way to cope Even though I lost my spark I will find a way to glow I don't know if I'm enough What if I am losing touch? 'Cause you were never meant to know Yeah, you were never meant to know I thought I saw a lotus Dwindling at dusk It told me I'm a poet Though I think it misjudged It then began to open & sitting in my palm Was every little moment I had come undone How am I meant to take this shit lightly Knowing life has an unknown expiry Wasting words in this dumb fucking diary Where my honesty lies Even though it breaks my heart I will find a way to cope Even though I lost my spark I will find a way to glow I don't know if I'm enough What if I am losing touch? 'Cause you were never meant to know Yeah, you were never meant to know My thoughts are out of focus My thoughts are out of focus My thoughts are out of focus 'Cause I don't want to lose you too Tell me why I feel so useless? Am I enough? Wake me when I'm enough 'Cause I don't want to lose you too Tell me why I feel so useless? Am I enough? Wake me when I'm enough Even though it breaks my heart I will find a way to cope Even though I lost my spark I will find a way to glow I don't know if I'm enough What if I am losing touch? 'Cause you were never meant to know Yeah, you were never meant to know My thoughts are out of focus