Proud

Do you know how this feels on my end (like a knife) to have to play pretend And slowly watch the one you loved Go further in life Without you to be by their side The only one you ever let in your life The one who showed me that there was more Then just the goals I had in mind A future that was kind Where everyone saw this kid Become the best version of a man that he could be Where everyone was proud of him Including you You were proud of me When I wasn't sure You loved me when the world gave its worst You talked about how great I was to all of your friends Where did that go in the end? How am I supposed to feel with this? I feel empty, I feel angry But you know that don't you? You're not stupid You can read me just like a book What gives it away? Is it the pain in these eyes I know you see it every time I'm here Don't forget that Even when you go off in your life Even when you think you've got it right You were proud of me when I wasn't sure You loved me when the world gave its worst I hope your friends are proud of you, now that I'm gone Your parents were proud of me I was proud of me