Heavy hearted

Yeah I'm heavy hearted right now but mxm This could be therapeutic for me or somebody else too You know what i mean like Let me just talk yeah It's been a while vele I guess it goes down to perspective Been searching for the truth like detectives I'm lost in an abyss of deception But still I search for the message I know they wanna know how it happened Ain't really depressed but I'm stressing about depression oh Lord It's been 2 years since my accident And I still carry the pain it's damaging don't want ya'll panicking But I'm having sleepless nights Cos I always rewind to the night I almost lost my life I felt i was talking to God He telling me it's not my time So I'm just gon' shine Really gotta take care of this light of mine Everything I do is a second chance Been dwelling in the dark man the devil wanna dance Ya'll saw what happened to Ricky Rick I don't even know how to really feel We call it suicide but it looks like the devil's kill Lord give me strength Don't wanna go out like that Thought of seeing my mama crying gives me strength to fight back She getting older though Just had a convo with my older bro Told him i don't know how I'll cope the day she gotta go The thought alone breaks my heart to the core That's the only woman to ever love me with all my flaws eish That's the realest shit i ever wrote i hope one day they gonna quote Ey, I put it on record and i put it on my soul Raised outta love but my heart is turning cold RIP to Banks imma still write you a song Look I miss you dawg I really wish you had a stronger heart Your voice is what I needed to hear when things fall apart I thank God for the summer days A part of me is in pain every single time it rains I said I thank God for the summer days A part of me is in pain every single time it fucking rains Hold on I hope one day I get free from this pain A lot going on one day I'll explain my nigga Ey, I hope one day I get free from this pain Ey, a lot going on one day I'll explain yea