disappointment (feat. Brit)

I can't help the way I feel now In my chest, a balloon full of doubt I'll compartmentalize that side of my heart Shut it down before the emotions start But the muscles circulating my blood Give me faith in what never will, or was I'm gonna hurt for you Probably cry and scream too But the worst part of it all Won't be the rise and fall Yeah, the worst part of this Isn't what we'll both miss It's the disappointment I'm disappointed I'd rather be high and think you hate me Than be sober and want you to love me Cause when that touch Meant something more I hated myself More than before I've spent so much time Pondering my mistakes I don't care about how long it takes I'm gonna hurt for you Probably cry and scream too But the worst part of it all Won't be the rise and fall Yeah, the worst part of this Isn't what we'll both miss It's the disappointment I'm disappointed In myself I can't tell if I've ever felt real love I think pit is what it really was I want something I don't understand You truly have the upper hand I would stop myself if I wanted to But all I want right now is you I'm gonna hurt for you Probably cry and scream too But the worst part of it all Won't be the rise and fall Yeah, the worst part of this Isn't what we'll both miss It's the disappointment I'm disappointed In myself Oh, in myself