Broken

I used to be a little better Happy in colder weather Could turn the gray skies blue in my mind Could run a mile every day But now my life's in disarray I just want my Lego's back tonight I never loved myself But I always wanted to until now Would say "When I get old, I'll show you all I said" But I was wrong But now I'm broken And everything seems hopeless My future has been frozen That door's no longer open I'm on the ground crying Slowly dyin' Facin' my decision To leave or go the distance Cause now I'm Broken When I knew to write My ideal self was in sight But now that seems so far away Now I just bullshit all the time Can't stand up and draw the line I just want you back again I never loved myself But I always wanted to until now Would say "When I get old, I'll show you all I said" But I was wrong But now I'm broken And everything seems hopeless My future has been frozen That door's no longer open I'm on the ground crying Slowly dyin' Facin' my decision To leave or go the distance Cause now I'm If you were to ask me 5 years ago Where I'd be right now I'd tell you I would've just graduated from college I would have a big boy job And be married to the girl I was dating back then I don't know what degree I'd have or where I would be living But I could tell you it'd be the life I wanted The life that I don't have