Leave Me for the Stars

Four one seventeen, ready for a new relation I found a girl, became my world without patience Now I know I should’ve waited ‘Cause although you said that we’d make it, we didn’t Six eleven seventeen I shattered into a thousand First time that it happened, and I didn’t know how, but I wanted to die Maybe a pill, or a gun, or a knife Then ten fourteen seventeen We thought we were meant to be Get a big ol’ house, have two kids, we had many dreams Now let us see Where we are now, we’re far apart Twelve o-four eighteen broke my heart And to be honest, the hardest part Is that you think I don’t care, but that is false And, one twenty-one twenty-nineteen Thought it wouldn’t matter if I leave So I tried to OD Part of me wishes I would have succeeded, high-key, why me? I went to a hospital Little did I know, they kept most my feelings all bottled up They thought that they caught me up But no, I’m still suicidal, I’m still suicidal Two nineteen nineteen, now you’re part of me Few days after you said you’d give your heart to me And you fucked up my arteries ‘Cause all I think of is you, and others are too hard to see Other people I don’t notice Blunt all my feelings with the joint that is passed This story has two endings, but all I know is You are my last hope